Five Minute Friday: Close

**Five Minute Friday is an initiative set up by Lisa-Jo Baker over at Surprised by Motherhood. The basic premise is to take the word Lisa-Jo gives and write, non-stop for 5 minutes. Then you stop and post. Read more about it here.

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As I go through the last eight weeks until my due date, I am eager to meet the child that I feel I already know and love. I look forward to the day I can hold that child close to me.

But there is a part of me that knows that I will never be able to hold them as close as they are now. While my child is in me, I can nourish and protect it, keep it safe from harm, keep it warm and happy. I can feel its body, feel every movement, every kick and punch and wriggle.

And that little part of me realizes what parenting truly is: it is a long process of letting go. Right from conception, a child grows more and more independent by the day. Within 7-9 months, it no longer needs my body in the same way. And I know that that is just the start. As my child grows up, they learn to be more themselves, to be more independent, to not have need for me in the same way.

And it is my job to help them in that. To love and hold and breathe life into, to pray for and nourish and protect. But to let them go a little bit more everyday.

It is a painful process, perhaps. But it is a beautiful kind of pain. A privileged one. A blessing.

Psalm 139:13-16I will never be able to hold my baby as close as they are now. And so I enjoy the privilege while I can.

But I still can’t wait to meet our baby and watch them grow into their own person – to find a new kind of close.

I was blessed with a very loving and wonderful childhood. My family cherished and guided me well. I am who I am because of them. Because they let me grow, and they let me go.

And we are closer because of it.

A new kind of close.

I look forward to seeing the other side of all the different kinds of close that are to come – through the eyes of a mother.

Henry Ward BeecherSTOP

Five Minute Friday

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11 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday: Close

  1. This is so beautiful! And so true – the long process of letting go. I’ve been so nostalgic this week as we approach my eldest daughter’s middle school graduation. So many milestones…..the temptation is to hold her closer but still, I’m eager to know what the next chapter of her life holds. So much promise, i know that! Coming to you from Five Minute Fridays! 🙂 Hope to see you again.

  2. awwww – that is so beautiful. It really is special and precious to have your baby inside you. I know you long to see and meet your baby, but you are wise to treasure this time. Beautifully captured Claire. I pray everything goes well with the rest of your pregnancy and the delivery!

    Take care,

    Gail

  3. Hi, I’m visiting from 5 Minute Friday. Thanks for sharing this beautiful post. You are so right! I wish you the best as you approach your due date. A baby is such a wonderful gift from God.

  4. Thanks for your post. I always loved feeling my babies move inside of me when I was pregnant. It was like a special secret just between the two of us. Now my children are almost all grown up and it is a different closeness, but a wonderful one. Enjoy the many years you have trusting that God will always help you to be close to them. Kaye

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